Why losing your patience can be a good thing.
I’m one of those people who has a tendency to be a little too nice, a people pleaser, a little indecicive, a little wishy washy and not sure of what she wants… but once in a while I’ll get pushed a little too far and something remarkable happens. I lose my patience. And it is the best thing ever. Suddenly things are clear and solid. I’m not too accomodating. Decisions are instantaneous and confident. I can clearly define what I want and what I don’t. Instead of considering every perspective under the sun, I stand in my own shoes only. I own it. I’m efficient. I”m ready. Get in my way..I dare you. With all the talk of loving kindness, patience, forgiveness sometimes I need a good ole “Get your head out of your ass. I will slap you if you need me too!” Stop making excuses for yourself and other people.
I keep coming back to “this is good”. Who the fuck cares if this is good?! That is not the point. What are you working toward? THAT is what matters. I want every goddamn second and intention and action I take today and henceforth to be in alignment with where I want to get to in 5 years.